Journey with Mary Magdalene Part 2

As I write this post, I am NINE days into my walk with Mary Magdalene.

In the years that I've felt like maybe I should try working with a deity, not once did Mary Magdalene ever really come across my radar. Looking back, I think that, in my mind, she wasn't flashy enough. Wasn't fierce enough. I thought that I wanted some dark goddess who was renowned for being a fierce badass to be who I worked with....because I had felt so taken advantage of for so many years. I thought that a tough badass wild woman was exactly who I needed to guide me. And, don't get me wrong, I am still very much wanting to work with Lilith, Hecate and the Morrigan, to name a few. But the Divine had a different plan of action for me. (Isn't that always how it works? lol)

I came across Mary Magdalene by happenstance. I found this really amazing woman, Ruby Magdalene, on TikTok. She is a Priestess of Magdalene. And, as I listened to her teachings, I began feeling this soft pulling to consider Mary. The more I watched and learned, the stronger (yet still gentle) that pull was. It turns out that Mary Magdalene is the balm needed for women that need empowered and lifted on their spiritual journey...but not in an overtly badass warrior way....in a soft and feminine, yet fierce and confident, way. She is known to help women (and probably men, too) find out who they really and truly are. This is exactly what I was looking for! I am an amazing and powerful lightworker and healer but, after decades of abuse, I was a people-pleaser and very confused about how to enforce my boundaries in order to protect myself. And I still wanted to stay soft and feminine. Mary Magdalene seemed like the perfect fit!

I decided to work with Mary until the full moon on September 17th, however, halfway into Day 1, I began second guessing myself. Mary was so sweet and dull. Lilith was wild and sexy. I found myself apologizing to Mary through a prayer....letting her know that I changed my mind and I'd just reconnect with her sometime in the future. I "heard" a quiet and soft voice inside me say "Please just give me a chance. Just a few days for me to show you who I am." I decided that I'd give her that...a few days.

But I didn't need a few days. I was convinced later that day as soon as I opened my mind and let her spirit speak to me. It wasn't entirely overpowering at first....but I definitely knew that the 30-something days dedicated to her was definitely something I could do.

I began my journey with her by lighting a Rose & Honey incense for her, speaking to her (like prayer) about what I hoped to gain while working with her (empowerment, enhanced spiritual gifts, etc) and thanking her for joining me on the journey. I explained to her that I promised to work with her until September 17th but that it could turn into a full time kind of thing if we got along well together. I agreed to read books about her and watch a few documentaries about her life but honestly was afraid that I'd be bored with these tasks....but a promise is a promise.

But, as the days progressed, I grew closer to her. Each day I pull an oracle card from my Rose Oracle, as her messages to me. These daily readings have brought tears to my eyes. See, I typically do these readings at night, after the kids go to bed and it's quiet and I can focus. From the very first night, my card fit something that had been heavy on my mind that day. Fit it exactly. Yesterday, I happened to pull my card early in the morning....and not only did the card address something I had been somewhat bothered by that morning (the card gave me complete reassurance about it) but the first words across the card were "Morning Dew". I mean....I know some would call it a coincidence but I don't believe it coincidences. I got the Morning Dew card on the first time I drew a card in the morning! I definitely felt that Mary was letting me know that she was present.

I cleared off a nightstand next to my bed, cleansed it with Florida water and smoke, then dedicated it to be an altar to Mary Magdalene. To anyone reading this who, due to religious teachings, feel that there is something evil or scary about this, let me assure you. It is just a dedicated area in my room that I some special items on to help me feel connected to Mary....and hopefully help her feel connected to me: a red candle, a pink salt lamp, a jar of dried rose buds, my Rose Oracle deck, an incense burner and a rose quartz and a carnelian crystal (all things that are associated with Mary Magdalene).

A couple of days ago, I "heard" the small soft voice urge me to watch the movie Mary Magdalene (starring Joaquin Phoenix as Jesus) to learn more about her. I understand that it is not entirely accurate, but it definitely helped draw me closer to Mary and all that she believed in and taught. I know this probably sounds really corny, but I swear that movie changed my life. I suddenly viewed Jesus and Mary in a whole different, and incredibly powerful, way. I've struggled with religious trauma for years and have steered very clear of anything that reminded me of Christianity. This movie changed that. While I'm not embracing Christianity, I definitely feel like Yeshua is calling me to Him. I don't believe that is taught in churches and in the Bible is what Yeshua or Mary taught and believed in. I'm not ready to discuss it all in here right now but I have had my eyes opened to a whole new world and I am so excited about it.

Excited enough that I am fairy certain that I will be walking with Mary Magdalene on a permanent basis. Excited enough that I will also welcome Yeshua back into my heart and life. Like I said, it is completely unexpected by me but this is turning out to be a totally life changing journey for me.

I've also been reading books about Mary Magdalene and have more added to my TBR (to be read) list. But I think I'll talk about those in another post.

For now, I think this is enough. It's a summary of my journey so far. Nine days in. And I am so in love.